Matt and Ben

Interview, Dec 1997, by Ingrid Sischy
The Sands are Shifting, the names are changing, and these two are bounding to
big screens and big places in hearts everywhere: Matt Damon and Ben Affleck
With flagrant disregard for the way things get done in the movie business,
lifelong friends and fellow actors Matt Damon and Ben Affleck decided to write a
movie they could act in. Now that movie - Good Will Hunting, directed by Gus Van
Sant and costarring Robin Williams and Ben's kid brother, Casey - is about to
hit the theaters and, lo and behold, it's an experience not to be missed.
The film is about the dilemmas of choice and responsibility, and he burdens
of belonging. It's the story of a damaged young working-class Bostonian (played
by Damon) who works as a janitor at MIT and is discovered solving math problems
that defeat even the most gifted students. As he is plunged into he competitive
world of academia he has to decide whether to follow his heart - which his best
friend (Ben Affleck) urges him to do - or the self-destructive impulses that are
the legacy of his upbringing.
These boys haven't arrived out of the blue. Damon, who first grabbed
audiences' attention in Geronimo (1993) and then gave a fine performance in last
year's Courage Under Fire, plays the embattled lawyer in Francis Ford Coppola's
recently released The Rainmaker. Emerging from jock roles in films like Dazed
and Confused (1993), Ben Affleck was outstanding this year in beth Chasing Amy
and Going All the Way. With Good Will Hunting, they're finally going solo
together.
INGRID SISCHY: I want to start at the beginning of your friendship. Did you
both grow up in the same neighborhood?
BEN AFFLECK: Yes. Two blocks away from each other in Cambridge,
Massachusetts.
MATT DAMON: Cambridge is not that big of a town. It's like the People's
Republic of Cambridge.
SA: And people of similar political persuasions tend to flock together. Most
lefties in "Cambridge County" know each other.
MD: And we were basically best friends since I was ten and he was eight.
IS: How did you meet?
MD: My mother is a professor of early childhood development, and she knew of
Ben's mother - who's a teacher of little kids and sought her out after we moved
back to Cambridge. So I was pretty much forced into hanging out with Ben. BA:
And Matt was a break-dancer at the time.
IS: Can you remember, Matt, what Ben was like in those days?
MD: Absolutely. I remember exactly what he was like: gregarious, outgoing. It
was no surprise that he grew up into the totally obnoxious guy he is now. Number
one, he claims that I never struck him out in Little League. Which is total
bullshit - I was the best pitcher in the league.
BA: That achievement in Little League grows exponentially with each passing
year.
IS: I see.
BA: We're the warrior and the clown.
IS: And how does that relate to your childhoods?
MD: Our childhoods were pretty normal.
IS: But also informed by the worldview of your parents, I assume.
MD: Yes. My mother had written some books on war play and those cartoons that
are like commercials for action figures. What worded my mother about those shows
was not only that they encouraged violent play, but also that they hampered
creativity. So growing up for me was like you'd get some blocks and then you'd
have to go make up a game. I was always making up stories and acting out plays;
that's just the way I was raised. Ben came from a more prestigious acting
background.
BA: My dad was in a theater company in Boston for a long time, so I was
always around that stuff.
IS: Did you do theater In high school?
MD: A lot. I knew since I was twelve that I was going to be an actor. I was
originally going to be a basketball player. Tiny Archibald was my favorite
player - he's called Tiny because he's only six foot one. My father sat me down
and said, "I'm the tallest Damon ever to evolve and I'm five eleven. But I'm
never going to play in the NBA." I gave up basketball at that moment and took up
acting.
Whatever I did, I wanted to be the best at it. I remember that moment in The
Natural when Robert Redford says, "I just want to walk down the street and have
people say, 'There goes Roy Hobbs, the best there ever was.'" So I was talking
to my mother one day - this was when I was sixteen or seventeen - and she goes,
"Matt, why are you so obsessed with acting?" And I said, "Because someday I want
to walk down the street and have people say, 'There goes Matt Damon, the best
there ever was.'" And she said, "Did I raise you? That's just an egomaniacal
pipe dream. How does it help other people?" Of course I hadn't given much
thought to that.
BA: In fact, in high school I can remember trying to convince Matt's mother
that not everybody in Hollywood was a total liar and scum. I was saying that
there are people in Hollywood who have a social conscience, too. I only repeat
this years later now that I realize it was a complete lie. [laughs]
IS: Do you think that wanting to become actors in an academic town like
Boston was a kind of rebellion for both of you?
MD: We weren't too rebellious. But every time we sat down to dinner, Chris
[Ben's mother] would say, "Why don't you guys become doctors?"
BA: I think our parents were concerned because everybody knows that acting is
a difficult career. I don't think they were that happy with the prospect of
their kids facing a lifetime of rejection and scraping by for a sandwich and
hoping we'd get free refills at the age of forty-five. But Matt and I were very
straightforward about wanting to be actors. I really think that everybody would
like to be an actor. Why wouldn't they? It's great work if you can get it. The
one thing that prevents most people from saying, "I'm just gonna go to
Hollywood!" is that it seems unrealistic.
IS: So by high school you were on your way, in your minds at least?
MD: We used to have what we called "business lunches" in high school, which
meant we met at the smaller cafeteria and got a table -
BA: - and worked out some business plans. We were really nerdy. So right now
we'd like to skip ahead to these slightly cooler years. Otherwise this is going
to get progressively embarrassing.
IS: Well, here comes more embarrassment. Do you think there's a narcissism
quotient in wanting to be an actor?
BA: I'd say it's the one quality that unites everybody in the film industry,
whether you're an actor, a producer, a director, or a studio executive. You want
people to look at you and love you and go, "Oh, you're wonderful." It's a
nightmare. Narcissism is the part of my personality that I am the least proud
of, and I certainly don't like to see it highlighted in everybody else I meet.
MD: [laughs] But you know, long ago Ben and I convinced ourselves that didn't
mean us, too.
BA: It's like all things in life: You have these qualities in you that are
awful, and the best you can do is to try to be aware of them and actively try to
diminish them.
IS: At this point in your careers, you can presumably see both sides: You can
see the ordinariness of who you've been, and you can see ahead of you, and fame
looming on the horizon, right? Does the fame part seem attractive, or
horrifying?
BA: Making movies has become such a golden ring, and it's all such a big
business, that the rewards system has gotten totally out of whack. Suddenly,
you're treated in a manner befitting someone who is actually an important
person. You get the best table, you get all this money, you get people saying,
"No, no, I'll pay the check." It implies there's a way of treating certain
people as if they're better than other people, and I don't think you should do
that. It's difficult for me to see the benefits of fame, except that you get the
chance to do the stuff you want to do. Aside from that, the only other good
thing I can imagine from being famous is that when I introduce myself, I no
longer have to go, "A-f-f . . ." "A-s-s . . . ?" "No. A-f-f, like Frank." I get
so much mail addressed to Mr. Asslick. That really drives me insane.
IS: [laughs] But don't you think fame can be not only pleasurable but useful
if you want to have some authority in the world and you want people to listen to
what you have to say?
BA: I don't think actors should have any authority in the world. It's a scary
world when actors have authority. That was the problem with Reagan.
MD: Yes, exactly. [laughs] Because somebody is on a television show or in a
movie, does that qualify them to talk about an important issue? I have no
problem with people who walk it like they talk it, but very few people do. It's
easy when everybody's paying attention to you to say, "Well, here's a cause."
But very few actors are moving out of their houses and getting out of their
Range Rovers to pick up their fellow man. Those few who do are the real thing,
and they usually don't talk about it.
BA: Spare us the idiocy and let people who are qualified talk. Instead of
listening to what Mariah Carey has to say about world peace, let's hear from
someone who at least has some experience in the matter.
MD: Look, I totally believe you should do things to better the world, but
oftentimes there's so much bullshit that just rings so hollow it kinds mucks up
the waters. But then there's a well-known actor I know who has a life goal to
change the laws so that tax credits will be given to big corporations for
investing in orphanages. He's got a whole system worked out, but it's not about
him. I think that some actors are more interested in having people think they
want to help people than in actually helping them.
BA: Or in assuaging some sense of guilt because they know they're overpaid.
IS: I think that often the first thing that happens when someone is a success
is they start to feel like a fake, so they need to show how true they are.
BA: The imposter syndrome. I wonder if there's anybody who doesn't feel that
way at some time.
IS: Matt, you went to Harvard, right? Did the idea of going there and wanting
to be an actor contradict what that place is supposed to be about?
MD: Not at all. They saw that I was dedicated to something and that I tried
hard at it. The opening line in the essay for my application to Harvard was:
"For as long as I can remember, I've wanted to be an actor."
IS: What was your college experience, Ben?
BA: It was much more choppy.
MD: There are few colleges that Ben hasn't gone to.
BA: Then I decided that twenty grand a year could be better spent on things
like liquor and women. And so that's the way I went.
MD: Ben's too modest to tell you this, but he's the most well-read person I
know. He's certainly a lot smarter than I am.
BA: That's why we stayed friends: because we lie for each other in crucial
moments. It gets you through a development meeting, I can tell you that.
MD: "I didn't want to say anything with Ben in the room, but yes, he did kill
somebody, and he feels really strongly that that scene has to stay where it is."
IS: When you each went your different ways after high school, did you feel in
your heart of hearts and In your gut of guts that you would remain friends and
end up writing something together - as you eventually did with Good Will
Hunting, the movie that opens in late December, that's got both of you in it,
and that's directed by Gus Van Sant?
BA: Matt and I had identical interests, so whether we ended up successful or
making hot dogs at Dodgers games, we knew we'd end up doing the same sort of
thing. The remaining friends part was pretty consistent. We saw each other all
the time, we talked on the phone all the time.
IS: Was there ever a period when you lost it with each other?
BA: Like got mad at each other?
MD: [laughs] He cheated on me in '87. That was a very dark time. But to
answer your question: No, we don't really fight.
BA: We just pout.
MD: Well, you do throw these screeching hissy fits.
BA: Actually, I'm always self-conscious about Matt and I being boring.
MD: We're constantly accused by people who come in and out of our circle of
friends that we're the most boring people even There are people who go, "I got
tickets to see so-and-so, and why don't you guys come?" We're like, "Yeah,
whatever," and end up at the same bar every night with the same people telling
the same old jokes. We've always been that way.
IS: And when you've had relationships, have you always respected who each
other's chosen?
BA: There's respect, but I think you have a false relationship if you pretend
all the time that everything's fine. I think you can only have a healthy
friendship with somebody if you're willing to say, "Listen, man, you're not
fucking picking up after yourself," or, "The person you're dating is obnoxious."
I think that happens and you kind of accept it.
MD: Ben and I've lived together in probably ten different apartments with ten
other people who we grew up with at different times, and the arguments are
always the same. For example, I'm a slob and I get yelled at for not cleaning up
when the house is a mess. When Ben brings the hookers over, it's -
IS: Are you roommates now?
MD: We were up until a few months ago. We had a place in New York, but we
didn't live there because we were both off doing movies. Now Ben's living with
his girlfriend in L.A. and I just finished working on a film, so I'm going to
stay with a friend of mine, Cole Hauser, who's one of the actors in Good Will
Hunting.
IS: Was Ben always the one with all the girls calling?
BA: That was Matt, really. I was a total failure with girls; it was a
catastrophe. It was the girls from the United Way that called me. [laughs] The
real story is that I have a problem with the telephone and I don't return phone
calls if I can't deal with something. It's not because I'm cool - it's because
I'm a loser and I'm afraid of dealing with something that's awkward and
uncomfortable.
MD: Which made one of our roommates mad. He would say, "Would you just call
her back? That's all you have to do." And Ben would say, "Year, I know. I will,
I will." And then the phone would ring again and he wouldn't take the call.
BA: Matt's just better at being diplomatic about these things.
MD: The warrior-and-the-clown thing again.
IS: All right, so let's move on from the romance to work. How did Good Will
Hunting come about?
BA: While Matt was still at Harvard, I went back to visit him and he was
working on a story.
MD: I was doing a playwriting class and a theater directing class with David
Wheeler, who knew this world that Ben and I both came from. And when Ben came
back from L.A. for Christmas, I showed him this thing I'd written and - because
he knows David, too - he came into the class and we acted it out. It was a scene
from what later became Good Will Hunting. Then, when spring break came around
the following March, I went to L.A. to audition for a part in Geronimo, which I
ended up getting. By then I had this forty-page thing and didn't know what to do
with it. I gave it to Ben, and he looked at it and said, "This is really good.
We should write this together." And I said, "I know, but I don't know where it
should go," and he said, "I don't either," but we agreed to write it. After
about a year, Ben and I started talking one night, and the script began flowing
right out. Then we wrote it very fast.
IS: Did you each take different parts of it and write them and then show each
other?
BA: We did some of that when we were apart.
MD: Once we started, we really got into a groove. While I was away, I'd write
and fax the stuff to Ben, and Ben would fax stuff to me, and we'd write on and
edit each other's faxes. It was basically the same as sitting in a room saying,
"No, no. I think you should say that."
IS: What's the movie about?
MD: First of all, let me preface this by saying we are the worst people in
the world at doing pitches. We could make a really good movie sound terrible,
and this one's not very high-concept to begin with.
BA: The thrust of the movie is that it's about a kid from a working-class
neighborhood in South Boston.
MD: He's an orphan, a born genius, who's discovered working as a janitor at
MIT, and it's about him being caught between all these different worlds: the
world of his friends; the world of the therapist [played by Robin Williams] he
comes in contact with; the world of this really amazing woman [Minnie Driver] he
meets who challenges him; and then there's the lure of the world his genius
introduces him to, which is represented by this math professor [Stellan
Skarsgard]. So he has to face all these different forces that are at work. It's
like a comedy and a drama and a coming-of-age story.
IS: Would you say the film is about your friendship or that it's in any way
autobiographical?
MD: It has those elements, but it's a totally fictional story.
BA: Telling this story came naturally to us. It wasn't like we sat down and
had a formula. It was much more like: Well, what would be fun to act?
MD: We never fancied ourselves writers. And actually, it was a source of
embarrassment for us when we sold the script, because a lot of our friends
really are writers and can write a lot better than we can, except maybe
dialogue. Writing a script is different, though, because to me it's not really
writing. It's acting, is what it is. We still don't call ourselves writers. We
just kind of go, "Well, I guess that worked."
IS: When you began the script, was it partly because you weren't getting the
roles you wanted at that time?
BA: Right. If no one else was going to give us the chance to do the kind of
acting we thought we could do, we decided we'd just make this movie ourselves -
however we could do it, low-budget, whatever. The whole idea was to have a
videotape on the shelf at the end of the day and be able to say, "We made this."
MD: We wrote it right out of frustration. It was like, Why are we sitting
here? Let's make our own movie. And if people come to see it, they come; and if
they don't, they don't. Either way it beats sitting here going crazy. When you
have so much energy and so much passion and no outlet for it and nobody cares,
it's just the worst feeling. And there are hundreds of thousands of people like
that in L.A. right now. This whole "I'm too cool to care" thing you get among
young actors in this country is so weak and stupid and played out, and it just
brings everybody down. You shouldn't be too cool to care, for Christ's sake. You
should be full of vim and vigor, and trying to do everything you can to make a
change.
IS: What happened next with the Good Will Hunting script?
BA: We are living proof that fortune favors the fool more than once. We
showed it to our agents and various other people -
MD: And it literally turned into a four-day event. It started on a Monday,
and by the Thursday night there was an all-out bidding war for the script.
IS: That was about three years ago. What was going on in your lives at the
time?
MD: My engagement hadn't worked out, so I was living with our other buddy,
Soren.
BA: I had broken up with my girlfriend and I was sleeping on the couch of
their apartment.
IS: And career-wise?
MD: For five years or so, OUT bank accounts would get down to the point where
we needed to get a job and another job would come along - although it wasn't
always a lot of money.
IS: Did you help each other out from time to time?
BA: Oh sure, if either of us needed money he could borrow it from the other.
Neither one of us ended up taking. It was never one-sided.
MD: If one kid had enough for a candy bar, then the candy bar was bought and
split in half - that's just the way it's been.
IS: Did it suddenly feel surreal having all those meetings?
MD: It was the first time we realized how Hollywood works. We'd both gone in
for a lot of auditions, but whet you actually have something that people are
trying to buy from you, it's a whole different thing.
BA: It was wild. We were kind of giddy. We would come out of a meeting with
both our heads to the phone waiting to hear the newest offer. And the offers
kept going up. You know, it would be, "And now Castle Rock's in . . ."
MD: It was like we'd won the lottery.
IS: Were you scared it was going to fall apart?
MD: We were afraid on a human level. We were talking about the difference
between eating Spam every day and being able to buy a three-bedroom house with a
pool table and new cars. So here we are, and we sell the script to Castle Rock.
BA: The idea was to do what was best for the movie, which was to get it made.
But after a year, we had a falling-out with them and they gave the script back
to us with a thirty-day turnaround period, which meant if we didn't sell it
within thirty days they'd get the movie back and would be able to do what they
wanted with it. It was either make it with who they were asking us to make it
with or take this risk. We were basically being fire and offered tickets to the
premiere of this thing we'd put three years of our lives into, and which was now
starring -
MD: - someone who wasn't us. So we sat down with Chris Moore, our producer,
and said, "What are we going to do?" Thanks to Chris, Miramax came to the
rescue. Gus Van Sant knew of us - my brother, Casey, had acted in To Die For
[1995] - and we heard he wanted to direct Good Will Hunting. We loved the idea,
because we respect him so much. Gus has this way of delivering earth-shattering
news in the most disarming, nonflustered flat monotone. "Yeah, I want to direct
it," he said. "That's if you want to do it. OK. Bye." So, as Ben said, fortune
was in favor of us fools - and we're happy.
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